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    Friday, February 27, 2009

    Gossip Girls :B @ 2:13 PM
    Yesterday was late to meet Baby again.
    Im trying very very very hard not to be late ler.
    Shall try to put in more effort bahs.
    Hais, erm then took train over to cine there lors.
    Watched Kungfu Chefs. Not bad leh!
    The show was quite cool though, and food :D
    It has been so long since i last saw Baby. Misses loads.
    Then after that was monstercue pokeball.
    Didnt play mah, as usual. Played spot the difference.
    With Katkat and Darryl. Woah free de!
    Lols, then we broke the champion record. Ftw! :D
    Trained to Potong pasir with Katkat.
    Decided to slack and girls talk at the Macs there.
    Talked until like about 1.45 like that i think?
    Go home, tired die already lors!
    Somehow i just couldnt fall asleep. Instead stare at ceiling.
    Dont know whats up with me this few days.
    Argh i need some sleep hello~ Stop the nightmares can.
    Stupid brain stop thinking of stupid things!
    -

    Going to meet Katkat and Fiona soon as planned.
    To go find Zhiwei and eat icecreammmmm.
    Actually what i really wanted was to meet Baby.
    He's at lan now though. ): Hais. Nevermind.
    Cos this few days would be too busy to go out at all.
    Hopefully i get things done within the time limit.

    So obsessed, somehow.



    Thursday, February 26, 2009

    Stupid quiz. ): @ 1:26 PM
    It have been long eversince i last did quiz.
    Zzz, super lazy can? Lols.
    But since i got tagged by Baby. Then nevermind.
    I shall do it. Cos im niceeeeeeee :D

    1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
    Lols. This is stupid .__. Dont know.
    2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
    Fcukedup. Stupid nightmares.
    3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
    Beckyyyyyy :D
    4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
    Dont think so bahs. Not sure.
    5: Would you ever donate blood?
    If i am able to, yeah why not. (:
    6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
    Yeppppp! Why not.
    7: Do you want someone dead?
    Those idiots who bully my baby Violet in girls home. Shoo, go die!
    8:What does your last text message say?
    " Lols, are you a pig? O: "
    9:What are you thinking of right now?
    Win, win, win. :B
    10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
    Wonders though.
    11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
    3am+ bahs.
    12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
    Someone bought it for me :B
    13: Is someone on your mind right now?
    Urm yeah? ._.
    14: Who was the last person to text you?
    Xiangsheng, my GuanYinDoggeh :D

    10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ :
    1. Baby Precious Laogong
    2. Jolyn Baobei
    3. Olivia Loooooooo
    4. Sherilyn Mei
    5. Boobie Congyong :D
    6. Qing Laopo
    7. Tiammie Hnddd!
    8. Xiangsheng GuanYinDog
    9. Fionaaaaa
    10. Yenhua Jiaojiao.

    15: Who is 2 having a relationship with?
    Some idiot ang gong guy. Ew ._. Stealer!
    16: Is 3 a male or a female?
    Female.
    17: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
    Lols. The whole world will fall plox.
    18: What is Number 1 studying about?
    Let me think, hostel life suck cock bahs?
    20: Is Number 4 single?
    Hahaha, i dont think so oh. =x
    21: Say something about Number 2.
    Naughty girl :D
    22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
    Tio daiji lah! No lahs, i was joking. (:
    23: Describe Number 9.
    My strong bitchhh. For the winnnn. ♥
    24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
    Wow, im waiting for the fight :B
    25: Do you like Number 8?
    He's my doggeh :B Why not. Hahahas.

    Wtf? There's nothing about Number 5. So sad.
    I shall add in myself :B

    26: Do you think Number 5's boobs are big?
    Yessssssssss. Boobie ownage lah!



    能不能好好爱我 (: @ 12:14 PM
    Havent been meeting Baby for days already.
    I really miss him alot. ):
    Feel so lost without him sometimes.
    Tellin myself to "Loonnnnnn!~" But i cant already!
    Cant help but just thinking of him all the time.
    Wokeup then prepare to go meet Fiona and her friends. (:
    At Dhoby walked around and window shopping.
    Then met with more friends after that, haha.
    Taka find another friend that is working.
    Fiona ate Pepper Lunch. Omg it was so tempting.
    I wanted to eat too, but saving money. =\
    Went walking again! Hahaha.
    Then go wisma foodcourt there eat dinner.
    After that went Fareast walk again!
    Something happened today, which spoiled my mood.
    Its like omgwtfbbq? Lols. Ahhhhhhhhh.
    Didnt wanted to go home alone, afraid of running away.
    So i asked Becky to fetch me home. =x
    Saw couple, keep hug and kiss and take photo. (- Sighs -)
    Like ew! Then we copy deesiao them!
    They keep diao us, like thinking we lesbians like that.
    Went rooftop see stars & shout. Made my mood better oh.
    Then used her phone zilian alot alot alot alot alot.
    Missed that cute camera of hers. Haha.
    Then she send me to the door and gave me a Huggy kiss.
    How nice right? Like couple like that. Yay.
    Learnt something new today okay with Fiona.
    See below if you're interested.
    -

    Boy: Dear, help me Pcc leh. ):
    Girl: But i dont know how to help Pcc.
    Boy: Its just like how you pour out ketchup from bottle.
    Girl: Oh okayokays, i will try.
    Boy: OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
    - Imagine what happened in between :D -

    The answer:
    She was hitting the bottom of the "bottle" and shakin the ketchup up!
    Imagine the pain on the dick head. Ouch!



    Wednesday, February 25, 2009

    我是 SUPERMAN :B @ 1:21 PM
    After an almost one hour talk with Jerry,
    Realized i havent been troubling him with my problems ler.
    But somehow this time i cant stop by confiding in him.
    It's like what he had said before last time.
    Doesnt really go into my mind. Ohwell like 30% of it?
    Sorry lahs. D: You say too much for my brain to take in what.
    Lols, im trying my best here hello ~
    At least i have changed some part of me from last time.
    List list, remember remember!
    I know you missed my smiles & laughter from before right!
    Thanks for always helping teddy bearrrrr. (:

    1) Have confidence in myself.
    2) Not to get influenced by what people says.
    3) Try to trust and respect.
    4) Dont always depend on my feelings and clear doubts.
    5) Not to always blame myself for what happen.
    6) Face the problem and not running away from it.
    7) Remember who am i. No one can change me, only myself can.
    8) Say goodbye to moody-ness, & be strong!
    9) Live my life to the fullest and smile everyday :D

    We finally talked everything out.
    Hopefully i wont keep think about other things anymore.
    I really want you to be happy thats all.
    Nothing else more i could ask for already, baby.
    Just need you beside me, hold me through.
    I will be strong girl. (:
    Okay enough of blogging already .__.
    Think im going to be late to meet Fiona already. ): Eeek.
    Being strong and fight together.
    Remember Fiona, we said we're gonna win not lose. ♥
    Jiayou jiayou. Yay. Okay enough crapping.
    -

    I've got a secret to tell,
    ( I miss baby alot & im trying not to think that way. )
    Shhhhhh! Dont tell anyone okays. =x



    Love without a reason. ♥ @ 12:41 AM
    Thanks to all that talked to me today, (:
    Really appreciated it.
    Fiona, Qiqi, Kelvin, Xs, Cy and others.
    I shall just be more positive and smile more.
    Be more optimistic right? :D
    Talk things out when i can, and not keeping it to myself.
    How could i have been so stupid.
    Ending up myself to depression all over again.
    Just say out what i feel right? Which is the best to do.
    Rather than running away from reality.
    Lols, now i turning into a counsellor already lahs.
    Suck nehneh! Puipuipui. Ewwww. Shhhh!
    I want to cherish what i have now, treause what i have.
    Before i lose it, and end up regretting.
    I dont want to cry anymore.

    Baby i really dont want to lose you, seriously.
    Seeing Fiona and Cymon ending up like this. Sighs.
    Im losing my confidence too.
    Will you be there to help me pull through our relationship?
    Is there words of affirmation i can cling to?
    Baby, you're my everything now. I cant afford to lose you.
    I just want you to be happy and be next to you.
    And i want to be there when you are down, or sad and all.
    I want to be the one who's always there.
    Whenever you need me, i really do want to.
    Give me this chance to love you truly, madly deeply. ♥
    I want to be the special one in your life.
    Nothing can replace your place already. Not even Violet.
    You should know how important is she to me.
    But now, somehow im putting you way more infront than her.
    Way more than i can even explain.
    -

    I love you.



    Monday, February 23, 2009

    Sick & Tired. @ 8:40 PM
    Given up hope on every single thing.
    I just dont know whats happening anymore.
    Im really moodless today.
    And nobody seems to care at all.
    Nobody seems to be there for me, hais.
    Feeling so alone. Something just dont feel right.
    Today is just the worst day ever.
    I hate this, hate everything in my life.
    Feeling pain inside, more than i can explain.
    Hurts really badly. Nothing to ease it.
    Having nightmares and crying every night.
    How would you feel if that happens to you? Imagine.
    This is how miserable my life is. Zxc.
    -

    Hoping there's someone there for me.
    Understand how i feel.
    What i see in front is all emptyness.
    Nothing for me to look forward to anymore.



    Nightmare. ): @ 1:39 PM
    Saturday. Suppose to Meet Miner at bunk. But i was too tired.
    From the songka so like fell asleep. Sorry lesbian. ):
    Then Olivia smsed me ask me want go shopping.
    For presents, since i was alone at home. I said okay lors.
    Went over to Dhoby Ghaut and meet her.
    But she was so late and i saw Weiwei over there.
    So sat there and stone lors. Until Olivia finally reached there.
    We didnt really go shopping, just ate something.
    Then we saw this really cute shop.
    I went really high after finding that shop. Darn cute!
    Stayed over at her house. Ate breakfast there too. Nice. (:

    Went bedok. Suppose to meet Kengyee Laogong de.
    Somehow i just saw someone so damn familiar walking forward.
    And it was Kukuho! Hahah, we ate mac. Met Kengyee.
    Then after that waited for Weiqin so long lors.
    She didnt bring charger also. My battery was like damn flat.
    But nevermind went over to bunk. And my eye was like hurting.
    Damn pain but i was trying to bear with it.
    Then Kengyee was really bored also. So kelian, me too actually.
    Pei you more next week okays laogong :D
    After that went to meet Baby at lan, went to eat mayouji.
    Slacked, talked cock, met Darryl, Jc and Katkat.
    Played lan around one hour and i won Baby in db4. Hah so happy!
    Lols, then went home lers.
    -

    I will try to save money okays.
    And use it appropriately. I promise. (:



    Saturday, February 21, 2009

    Pekchek. @ 4:11 PM
    Lols. Cant remember what happened sia.
    Thursday i think i stayed at home?
    Totally cannot remember a thing at all lahs. D:
    Hmm, then yesterday Baby came over to fetch me.
    Then went to Dhoby Xchange eat.
    Passed by this brownie shop hiring part time loh.
    The brownie so nice until i cant bear to eat.
    Took some photos too. (:
    Haha, i want go work there. So cool please.
    Should go ask another time.
    Then after that bought movie tickets at cathay.
    Saw Ahwei, Weiwei, Nightkids, and alot others lah.
    Lazy to mention the others.
    After met Jc, Lionel, Darryl, Cymon, Fiona and her friend.
    Watched He's just not that into you.
    It was fucking 2 hours and 30 minutes. Darn long can.
    All crapping de lors, stupid show.
    Seriously would rather the swedish vampire one.
    Anyways, after that went monstercue.
    Went to the songka look for Kukuho, Weiqin they all lors.
    Tmd, tired die can. ): All sleep one me.
    Wanted go visit 108 Kuibeh and Kuibu de but too tired ler.
    Went home after that lors. SLEEP!
    -

    Never will be better without you,
    Just happy you're here to hold my hand.
    And leading me through, Baby.
    I love you. Misses truck loads already ._.
    Happy 2 Weeks ♥



    Wednesday, February 18, 2009

    Contradiction. @ 4:44 PM
    Yesterday left home quite late too. Opps.
    Haha, im Little Miss Late :D
    Kind of true anyways, im always late in school too.
    Never failed to be centre of attention.
    Just because of being late every single day ._.
    Reached lan, went to eat.
    Actually planned to eat Mayouji one lors.
    But never open, walaoeh. ):
    So long never eat ler, let me eat one time also cant.
    Idiot idiot idiot. Er then play lan awhile.
    Went over to Darryl's house slacked then prata.
    Walk Baby home, chatchat downstairs.
    Talked out almost everything that morning. Wow.
    After that cabbed home & sleep.
    Lols, im wont be paranoid.
    And you shouldnt be too right, Baby?
    Let's both not be okay :B
    Trying my best to be a better girl for you.
    Also be a GENTLE oneeee. (:
    -

    Hah, something made me laugh my head off.
    Boy told me that those girls who worked at sunset.
    Said i was cuteeeeeeeeeee :D
    Lols, though i dont think so but nevermind.
    It cheered me up. I feel so bhb now. Eeeeeeeeekkk.
    Fine, im not cute. =x



    Tuesday, February 17, 2009

    Unforgivable. ): @ 12:54 AM
    Didnt really do much today anyways.
    Metup with Nick as promised since a long time ago.
    Ate lunch at Windsor. Not bad lahs.
    Wanted to try the salad, and soup de but nevermind.
    Another time bahs. When he treats.
    Went home to take a nap after that. But daddy woke me up.
    Asked me to pass things for him to the daughter.
    What the hell can. That thing whatever that is, was damn heavy.
    And taller than me okay! .__. Walan. Taller leh!
    After that didnt know where to go. So went to Sunset.
    Slacked there awhile lors. Nothing else.
    While they playing comp i was playing with the paul frank hat.
    Went down to upper look for Baby. Then home.
    -

    I did something wrong today.
    And i just couldnt forgive myself until now.
    Just cant help but cry.
    I know its uselss crying and all.
    But somehow it was at a point that i couldnt stop those tears.
    It just keeps coming down, i dont know why.
    Seriously need to reflect on what i have done today.
    How could i have been so stupid.
    Baby, i never want to lose you because of what happen today.
    I cried, i was scared. I realized what i did wrong.
    Really sorry baby. I simply just cant forgive myself.
    I dont know how to make it up to you.
    But somehow after this incident it made me want to cherish you more.
    And putting more effort into this relationship.

    I'm really sorry...



    Sunday, February 15, 2009

    Horny baby :B @ 2:37 PM
    Last night, went over to Jc's place.
    Cymon, Fiona, Katkat, Darryl, Lionel were there. (:
    They wanted to scare Baby de. But failed.
    Haha, i kind of destroyed it though.
    Changed clothes and went down to the pool.
    All except for Katkat, Darryl dont allow.
    Tsktsk. Reminded me of what happened at the theatre.
    Darryl shouted in the theatre.
    I love you, Katkat. Will you be my girlfriend? - Wow.
    Lols, it was like loud. My god. Malu can.
    Tio screen when we were swimming, cos too much noise.
    What the hell can? "Shhhh!" Rofl?
    Then showered, was kind of tired so slept awhile. =x
    Wokeup around 6.30am take cab home.

    To Anon,
    I know true loves sure die.
    At least i know im trying to make it last. (:
    So is Baby i hope?
    Nothing lasts forever.
    But with just a little hard work or effort.
    You'll never know what you might get out of it.
    -

    Happy belated 10th month anniversary. ♥
    Kengyee Precious Laogong.
    Meetup soon lahs, i miss you so much!



    Saturday, February 14, 2009

    Happy Valentines. @ 11:34 PM
    Today went out really late, wasnt really as planned :X
    I said i wanted go out early! Oops.
    Slept like a pig. D: Baby went to buy tickets.
    I went to find my Mummy to take money and supermarket for food.
    After that went to look for Irwin give him money.
    Walked to Lido meet Baby and others :D
    Baby wanted give me a shock from behind but failed. xD
    Stupid baby. Never get me rose! No lahs.
    I DONT LIKE FLOWERS :D
    They die, means our love dieeeee. No good no good. ):
    Baby, buy fake rose next time! Wont die.
    Watched movie; Look for a star. Not bad lahs, almost cried.
    So sweet that show. There was a Maomao in it too!
    Baby thinks he will become famous with the Maomao name! Noob.
    After that came home with Baby to cook dinner. (:
    He helped me with the cooking too. THANK YOU LAHHHH.
    My mother says he have baby face! xD
    Then opened present that Baby gave me, so sweet.
    I LOVELOVELOVE IT :D
    You're the bestbestbestbestbestttt.
    Maybe going Jc's place now and playyyyyy.
    -

    Babybabybaby.
    Its my happiest valentines day. ♥
    & i havent finish your present lah dey. ):
    How sad. Wait until its done!



    Meet the fockers. @ 2:44 AM
    Stupid blogger lahs. Cannot post or view photos. wtbbqfuck lahhhs.
    Simi lanjiao siah. Kanasai lors.
    Pissed me off, want post photos also dont let me.
    Fuck blogger hard hard. ):
    Today morning wokeup quite early. Call bi wakeup.
    Prepare go back school visit :D
    Aboard the same bus as Bi and went to school.
    Woots, finally ate those california and salmon rolls that i missed.
    And have been craving for! Wahahaha. Nice.
    Nothing much changed at school.
    Saw lots that i missed. Memories all came back instantly.
    Lyn, Yenhua, Olivia, Valen, Grace, Nat, Wailam, Mr.Teo, Mr.Razak.
    And also some others. (: All so high when saw me.
    Made me really happy yo. I will visit soon again okays, tuesday.
    Sorry to some that i didnt get to meet.
    Chat chat awhile then went to Bugis shopping for clothes with Bi. (:
    Saw Alfred & Cheehoe there again -.- How great.
    Headed to Changi to eat Popeyeeeeeeee :D
    Slacked awhile waiting for my parents & sister to reach airport.
    Saw my sister walked away just like that.
    Though we seemed like enemy and hates each other, but honestly.
    Im missing her already. I even cried when she walked away.
    Will study well, as you wished. I promise.
    Thanks for always helping me out when i was doing the wrong thing, Jie.
    Do takecare over there alright? I'll miss you. ):
    My parents saw Bi too :D Then bi ball shrank lohs! Scaredy cattttt.
    Went to darryl house meet Jc, Lionel, Marc, Katkat, Fiona, Cymon, and Zhiwei.
    Slacked awhile and planning for tomorrow then went home :D
    -

    Thanks baby today pei me go so many place.
    HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. ♥
    ILOVEYOUUUUU OH.
    You promised to pei me go school on Tuesday.
    Dont forget. Thank you very much.



    Thursday, February 12, 2009

    Home alone. @ 5:25 PM
    Didnt go out Bugis shopping as planned today.
    But nevermind lahs. (:
    I'm not angry with you lahs. Dont be paranoid okay! =x
    Hahahas. Im just really bored at home doing nothing at all lors.
    Sibei sian. Hais, alone at home is so boring ~
    I want to go out. But only tomorrow have plans lors. Loads.
    Tomorrow, maybe going Sunset, or Bunk.
    Meet Boy, Kaueh & Ahwei Nerdnerd :D
    Maybe going to meet Irwin to pay for my contact lens too.
    Im really broke already!
    Shopping with Mummy maybe? :D Clothes!
    Didnt get to meet Baby today cos he need go lan.
    For some Audition couple event.
    Its okay lahs. Jiayous for the event alright? (:
    Valentines day is coming coming coming really soon!
    And i have no money.
    What shit is this man. I cant get anything for Baby. ):
    Hope my brain will be working really fast to think what to do now.
    Hello brain ~ You're not thinking yo. Think faster!
    Dont think can cook or bake anything for Baby lers.
    Cos its late & expansive. Die.
    Now i need to plan something else. D:
    Baby. I will cook another time for you okays, i promise.
    Argh. Im still very bored.
    Baby is doing something now, he doesnt want to tell me!
    He's a baddie. Leaving me bored die at homeee.
    -

    Baby. I was never angry with you.
    Dont be scared okays. (:
    I will stay with you as long as i can. ♥



    Wednesday, February 11, 2009

    I ♥ my Boyfriend :B @ 11:29 PM
    Talked on the phone until very EARLY last night oh, with Bi. (:
    Until 7am i think! Quite tired actually!
    Went out around 7pm to meet Bi at bugis :D Took cab.
    The uncle very nice okay. Charge me 5 bucks when its 8 bucks!
    Met Darryl, Marc, and Zhiwei there too. Waited for Cymon and Fiona to come down.
    Suppose to go down to Sunset with Fiona de. But i was lazy.
    So yep, didnt go. Another time bahs.
    Some Valentine shopping for some of them :D
    While me, Boo, Cymon and Fiona went to bugis street to walk around.
    Walked seperately but ended up at the same shop buying the same clothes!
    Tomorrow maybe going to shop with Bi again.
    Cos saw some nice clothes but no money buy. ): Must buyyyy!
    YAY. Can see Bi tomorrow again! Cant wait cant wait. (:
    Booboo send me home today, thanks bi ♥. ILOVEYOUUU! & He carried me!
    Took some photos again and he went home. Kelian bi need walk so far. Stupid. D:
    Ohright when at bus stop that time saw Cheehoe & Alfred lor! Omg -.-
    -

    Baby. Somehow im always smiling around you.
    Im really happy with you. (:
    Promise not going to leave you ever okays. ♥
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