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    Tuesday, June 30, 2009

    You dont know. @ 9:26 PM
    I think im sick, & i feel sick.
    So im going to Quarantine myself at home.
    And rest, and dont come online.
    Until im feeling better.
    -

    I know nobody will miss me. :D



    HAPPY MEAL :D @ 6:35 PM
    Regret, regret, regrets manzxc.
    Actually not all free things are good afterall. :x
    LAUGHS, I FEEL LIKE A JOKE.

    hahaha okay enough random stuffs alr!
    It has been just 3 days eversince i last met Bi.
    & im like going crazy already la. Gosh.
    After so many things had happened recently.
    Seriously cant stop thinking about him.
    Just wanna see him every second, minute.
    Cant let him get out of my sight even awhile.
    But somehow i just have to let it be bah. :)
    He's busy studying, & i understand.
    Let him have some time of his own thens!
    Baby, i love you many deep deep. ♥
    -

    Oh gawd, Sister's back from Aussie, holidays.
    And ha, finally i get my Twillight series!
    Im going to get so distracted from the books.
    When im suppose to be studying, nehneh.



    I ♥ MJ :B @ 4:08 AM
    JACKSON'S TH SEX YO!

    Haha i realised im getting obsessed over MJ again. :x
    And that is so increadibly shocking. (!!)
    It has been years ever since i keep listening to his song.
    All Yenhua's fault la. Stupid girl la you, tsk.
    & Uploaded MJ songs into playlist, i must be crazy.
    School has open, it doesnt seem that bad though.
    Now clique with Noah, and Panda quite well, hahahaha.
    So amazing la, i get along with non-singaporeans! :D
    It doesnt seem as boring now with friends. Woweeee.
    This week's damn slack, but have lots to do! Gah.
    I have the craving to eat sushi & burger king recently!
    Someone treat me eat sushi pleaseeeeeeeee? :\

    Another berii berii berii de important thing is that,
    I really miss Baby alot. Cant stop thinking about him.
    Gosh, imma really high & crazy this few days.
    Maybe is the stupid headache that made me like this.
    Really wanna see Baby really soon, purlease. ): ♥



    Sunday, June 28, 2009

    死亡是不是终点, 会停止想念. @ 9:19 PM
    Cant believe i studied for so long today.
    Think nobody believes anyway, so nevermind :D
    -

    The headache is making me feel so sick.
    I need sleeping pills. :\

    Bi, im Sorry, & i really love you. Miss you so much.

    Im the worst there is, Im the worst there was, & Worst there ever will be.
    FUCK YOU KHOO KAILIN. SERIOUSLY GO DIE, BLOODY FUCKER.



    Stand By Me. ♥ @ 2:40 AM
    Lols, didnt realise i never update for so long.
    Urm nothing much to update actually.
    Finally caught my Yoshi dragon with Baby, :B
    He's really really happy. & caught two!
    Now each of us have one. Oh, and Transfomers!
    Though we sat on the first row, but haha.
    It was still nice lah, :] We watched it on 23rd.

    Ytd went out with Rachelle Baby, Jolyn Baobei.
    Rach's brother, AhQiang, and Ashiq.
    Didnt do anything much bahs. Sushi's the sex yo.
    It was the only thing i enjoyed the most. :x
    Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARY DIDI.
    Growup alr must be more guai okays.

    Today went Monstercue meetup with Baby. ♥
    Watched him, and Zhengzhi play pool.
    After that when going home saw Vi Bee's Dad.
    Then i chua sai, look also dont dare look ._.
    He keep stare, stare. Scare me la sia!
    Tomorrow maybe meeting with Bee & Miner.
    -

    After, going study like shizzo, i swear. (!!)
    I made a timetable schedule to remember. :D



    Tuesday, June 23, 2009

    xiaoqiang the cockroach my new bestfriend :B @ 12:47 AM
    A year has passed, many things have changed.
    Family, friends, enemies. Everyone.
    Passedby Ahlyn's blog and realised something.
    Even the stupid boobie Chongyong also changed lots.
    Going back to audi sucked, it was boring.

    Went over to Kuibeh's yesterday.
    Met Rachelle Baby and Nelson Daddy there too.
    Gosh i lost thirty two bucks there la wtf.
    AhQiang also came over to Kuibeh's.
    Stayed at Kuibeh's chitchat and watched tv.
    Then Kuibeh keep say me Kukulin, walao.
    After that went to meet Baby at Eastcoast park.
    We finally ton there like i've always wanted.
    Bused home in the morning. Love you Baby. ♥
    -

    Baby, eventhough the past i had was really fun.
    No matter how much i wanted to go back.
    But i'll think of how i've gone through it all.
    To be the way i am now, just for you my baby.
    So dont go think so much anymore alright?
    All the hardships we've been through together.
    Proves the love we have for each other.
    Baby im here loving you forever, i wont ever leave you.
    You're afraid, im afraid too. But we'll make it through.
    Because if we think we can, We can! :]



    Sunday, June 21, 2009

    Malaysia Trip @ 3:20 AM
    Okay, im finally back from Malaysia yo :B
    Wont be posting photos today so yeah plain post.
    -

    17June
    Went to find Baby at Monstercue, played pool.
    After that went to watch Drag me to Hell midnight movie.
    Walked all the way to Boonkeng eat macdonalds, :x
    Cab home to pack my bag quickly and prepare to leave.
    Bus to Genting, sleeping during cos very tired.
    Didnt do much on the first day as said in bottom post.
    Ohwell, i saw that dickhead in same bus as me la.
    He suck, he suck, he suck. At least never deesiao me bahs.
    Reached Genting saw Cheryl Xingan, :]

    18June
    Wokedup early morning to eat breakfast, Stonegrill.
    Lols, after eating went to shop around.
    After that went to the outdoor theme park to play.
    Gosh, it was damn tiring seriously. Bodyache!
    There was a roller coaster named "Cockscrew", cute hur?
    My cousin was like: "Oh, they screw your cock la?"
    Laugh die, the other one was like spaceshot. Uber cool.
    I felt like flying yo. My cousin ball shrink, ran away.
    We spent most our time fishing rubber duckies.
    I won a teddy bear for my first try at it. Imma prozxc!
    Fuck that dickhead sia, keep dao me. Nehneh.

    19June
    Wokeup super duper early again, to leave for Kuala Lumpur.
    Damn, the hotel was so much nicer than Genting's.
    Went to Times Square to do my shopping! No money lur. ):
    Couldnt buy much, and i saw many nice clothes okay!
    The theme park inside was WOAH, coolios yo! Shocking okay.
    Went to the stupid night market to eat beef noodle.
    So tiring la, everywhere so pain still make me walk like hell.
    Instead of taking cab, we took the stupid train lors ._.

    20June
    Wokeup super duper early again to eat free breakfast.
    Saw my primary school teacher! Miss Ee! Lols :x
    Went to the Twin Towers to look around, nothing much.
    After went to the Aquaria to see the underwater life.
    Then it was time to leave already, reached home late!
    Ate alot during this trip. Im going to be really fat soon la.
    Gosh, i need to go on a diet already yo! Bye to fats!



    Thursday, June 18, 2009

    Chicks over Dicks @ 12:41 AM
    Gah, fuck the audi in malaysia manzxc.
    Anyways, didnt do anything much today lors.
    To use comp here also so damn ex la, walao eh.
    Its like 15RM for one hour lors. Damn it.
    Today reach Genting around 12plus to 1 like that.
    Check in hotel then went to eat MB, :]
    Slept for awhile in the hotel cos very tired.
    Then went to eat some provided dinner which sucked.
    Actually i drank the mushroom soup only.
    The food colour all looked like shit can, how eat!
    Should have ate the Jap food with Derrick.
    And now im like super duper hungry!
    Wonders what Baby is doing now lurs, hais.
    I miss him so much. Hope he's having fun there bah.
    Though i dont know if he's still awake not.
    Super worried for him somehow i dont know why.
    Just not used to it when he's not around. ):



    Wednesday, June 17, 2009

    What our love can do :B @ 5:20 AM


    Hey guys, im going off soon already. Gah this sucks!
    Anybody can help me takecare of my Baby?
    Please do if you can alright. He's a clumbsy pig :x
    Haha actually thats me, but nevermind.
    So anyone with him, do takecare of him for me!
    Nehneh, im going to miss my boyfriend so damn much.
    But i know for him to feel better is for me to have fun there ba.
    He expects me to do shopping for him there! Tsk.
    Baby uhs, woaini henduo henduo okay.
    Dont hu gao with any zhabor i tell you. I slaughter you!
    Boys also cannot hor, dummie asshole.
    So cymon daddy, shoo away from my peixun k!
    I dont allow ass poking when im not around for now :]
    Boy uh, must takecare of yourself alright? ♥
    -

    & Thanks for pei-ing me whole night today baby.
    Im really happy and touched. I love you!
    Really appreciate your effort to make me happy :D
    I will takecare alright, so dont worry boy.



    Tuesday, June 16, 2009

    I'd live to love. @ 12:04 AM

    Hmm, met Baby as planned today!
    Went to watch, The taking of Pelham 123.
    It wasnt as interesting as it seem though.
    Should have watched Drag me to Hell instead.
    But its okay, maybe another day yeah :]
    Started to feel damn emotional on the way home.
    Dont know why just started to cry..
    Its just that when i start to think about it.
    Simply cant bear to leave, and go Genting lur.
    I will miss Baby like so dang much.
    And wont even be able to talk to him for 4 days.
    Yea, i know its just a short period of time.
    But it just seems so long to me ;
    Not being able to hear his voice before i sleep.
    Im totally not used to it at all lur! D:
    -

    Baby, i know you dont want me to be like this.
    I will cheer up okay :] Sorry Bi, made you worry.
    Gonna try to have fun when im there alright.
    Anyone wants bubblegum? ♥



    Sunday, June 14, 2009

    Everlasting Love (: @ 7:39 PM
    Yesterday was ChuHeng's birthday.
    Suppose to meet them at 3pm, Serangoon de.
    But i was late :\ Sorry baby.
    They didnt know where the steamboat place was.
    So we just used our instincts to find :D
    Haha and we finally found it in the end lurs.
    But we reached there like 4pm when it opens at 5pm.
    So stupid right, then slacked at Macs first.
    Waited until 5pm then we walked back to eat.
    Dummie Bi keep eat pork only, dumbo.
    Lols, actually the steamboat was not bad la. Cheaper too.
    Im so going to gain weight again la, eat so much :x
    After went to Chu's house to slack & home.
    -

    Sorry Bee, cant go out with you today. Gah.
    Meet when you come out two weeks later alright?
    LOL i missed you many many too yea :D !
    Next time i dont shout alr, i burn down girls home.
    See you soon, Aku cinta kau ♥



    Friday, June 12, 2009

    BPX's MINE :B @ 8:35 PM
    ♥
    Lols, my gawd. I took so long to do this stupid blogskin.
    Hope it looks okay bahs. Gah :\ Nehneh la.
    I wanna find more nicer songs to put in my blog. ):
    But i just couldnt find so nevermind ba. Next time update.
    Stoned at home one whole day today though.
    Suprisingly i didnt get that bored and didnt facebook!
    Was doing this blog and editing photos only.
    Really missed Baby alotalotalot. Like wtfuzxc, shitzxc :D
    See you soon okay bi. Love, love, loveee.
    End all our quarrells and arguements, i promise. (:



    I lie awake. @ 2:25 AM
    Can you hear me screaming,
    Coming to find you.
    It's not that I want to,
    Make it another night alone.
    I lie awake, because I'm scared.

    ♥
    I want to know whats wrong with me, i really do :\
    Going crazing, breaking down, falling faster.
    Tried to relax myself. The feeling fills my heart.
    Put all the blame to myself. Tried to make it better.
    Just need a little hand to pull me up right now.
    Thinking how to save it, everyday and night.
    Bringing it all back isnt easy, i will still try as hard.
    Love grows when trust is laid, Love dies when trust is betrayed.
    Earning that trust back is difficult. I know.
    But no matter what i'll find a way to earn it back i thought.
    Will there be another chance left for me? I thought too.
    Dont want it to be over. But is it my say?
    Believed in the eternity we could have, i do. Really do.
    Whats the use when im not putting effort to it?
    Through everything, my love for you never dies; Never.
    Now, Love itself is just not enough anymore.
    But i will still have this in my heart always, I love you.



    Thursday, June 11, 2009

    Crashed. @ 4:51 AM
    So baby, turn your love up loud.

    Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. I've made.
    Maybe after today, i'll never be able to bring it back.
    Or get a chance to mend this wound anymore.

    Is it that i cant live without him or was Jolyn right? Is it just the memories im not prepared to let go? Hais. Its over ba, i guess. I made too many mistakes. So this is the consequence i have to take. Im so sorry baby. I love you.

    Thanks sisters' for cheering me up. Luv.     ♥



    Wednesday, June 10, 2009

    Take me away. @ 3:11 AM


    Hope everything gets better from today onwards bahs.
    Baby, i cant afford to lose you anymore yeah.
    I will try my best, even if i cant, i still will okay. (:
    Lets work hard together to make this relationship last.
    No more getting hurt by each other, neither getting stress.
    I believe in our eternity, baby. Jiayous. ♥



    Monday, June 8, 2009

    Fuck it. @ 8:35 PM
    FUCK EVERYTHING LA, I JUST CANT STOP CRYING!
    WHY CANT I JUST STOP THINKING OF YOU.
    WHY CANT I JUST STOP CRYING WHEN MY EYES HURTS.
    I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH, I HATE MY LIFE.



    734986's Forever @ 8:18 PM

    Seperated even when there's love within. Then whats love?

    ♥
    Four months, after rain and shine. Over just like that.
    Those happy times. Those hard times.
    All sweet dreams shattered in just one night.
    What happened to those future that you promised? :\
    Said that my birthday will different this year.
    Hoping that you would be there when you wont be?
    That you were never going to let go.
    That those wishes were all going to come true.
    That what ever happens you're staying with me.
    That we had stronger bonds than any other couples.
    Saying through those arguements, you understand better.
    Then why let that sms i didnt bother about affect us?
    I endured your temper. I endured everything.
    No matter how much more to endure, i will endure still.
    Cos even with all this, my love's still the same for you.
    It wont be gone even if you did something wrong.
    Shouldnt it be like this? I dont know anything anymore.
    That was the love that i always believed in.
    Im living in a nightmare everyday without you.
    When will the pain ever end. I wish to know it myself.
    Now i understand what you meant by different.
    The impact of my hopes pinned up so high, falling.

    Yes, it would be so much different now without you in my life.



    Eye-offending Brine @ 6:57 PM

    Happiness when you move on, & Happiness that was right there.

    ♥
    A question with no answers. Which is better? Who knows.
    I would prefer the Happiness that was right there.
    But maybe when the right thing was to move on and be happy.
    Its better if i didnt exist sometimes, i didnt have to think.
    Never will i remember, or have memories of anything i love.
    Didnt have thoughts or even feelings. Isnt it great?

    Thanks for all those that tried to talk some sense into me. (:
    But im sorry to say, im not okay. Really sorry.
    I just cant stop thinking, or stop crying at all. I've tried so hard.
    But everything i try to sleep and when i open my eyes.
    Every single little thing in my room just reminded me of him.
    Memories would just start appearing in my mind.
    Its just like a nightmare repeating. I cry whenever my eyes open.
    Eventhough how pain or swollen my eyes is, i just cant stop.
    Telling myself to stop, but everytime that happens. I cry more.
    What am i suppose to do? Disappear somehow? But how.
    Panda, Katkat, Pork and others. Im sorry. I just cant be okay.
    I tried to hear you guys talk, but it just doesnt work.
    Everything i've done has a consequence to it, so now i've to pay.
    Im tired of life, feelings, love, dreams and hope. Its pointless to me.
    He was right, i dont even have the heart for anything.
    All i know how to do is play. So now, everything seem so empty.
    Life feels empty for me already. Nothing to move ahead to.
    So how can i be happier when you're asking me to move on with life.
    I cant even study. Im so useless to this world and to anyone.
    Always claim that im a kind girl. Im just some devil sent on earth.
    Sent to hurt everyone that i love and make them hate me.
    Im a sinner, not worthy to be living. Not worthy to anyone at all.
    So whats the point? Even the book of answers cant answer me.
    Maybe even this world have already given up hope on me.
    No expectations for me anymore, cos im just some useless freak.
    Those that loved me, end up hating me even more if i lived any longer.
    Maybe a goodbye would be the best last word to say. Goodbye.
    -

    To pay this debt of love.
    Peixun, my heart's always yours.



    Sunday, June 7, 2009

    Happy 4th Month :B @ 5:55 PM



    ♥
    Baby, here's another thankyou for bringing me eat good food.
    Finally posted the photos already la, happy? (:
    Heh, Astons & Cafe cartel. Hmm, Astons' is still better.
    I love you baby. We've been through so much togetherrr.
    Just a blink of an eye, its four months already.
    Still so unbelievable to me, im glad i've got together with you.
    Ha, like you said. Whats four months compared to our eternity.
    Really hope my wishes would come true yeah? Loves.
    Lets make this holiday an unforgettable one okay my dear.
    Baby, i'll never let go of you ever ever ever, i love you!
    -

    If music be the food of love, play on.



    Thursday, June 4, 2009

    Depressed @ 11:57 PM
    Cos' if you jump, I will jump too.
    We will fall together, from the building's ledge.
    Never looking back at what we've done.
    We'll say it was love.
    Cos' I would die for you,     On skyway avenue.

    ♥
    Im having those dreams again, when will it stop?
    Would anyone ever understand whats going on with me.
    I seriously really want to know it myself too.
    When will i ever stop playing around, and start working.
    Hais, why do i have to make everyone around give up on me.
    The only thing that keeps me distracted is dear Peixun.
    Bi, thanks for always being there for me, i love you. (:
    Its going to be our 4th month anniversary soon already yo.
    The times we had together were amazing baby.
    I know you're upset and disappointed in me.
    But i really dont know why im being like that now.
    -

    & HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CUIWENNN!
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