Everything's just sweet talks, coax isnt it? I dont know why you can totally flipped to another one person totally different within just one day. Everything you said, did you even mean it? Or was it just saying for the sake of saying it. I really dont understand. But i want to. So tell me. Why can you tell me so many things in one day, to make me so happy. And the next day you say something that would make me so fucking upset. Opposite of what you were saying and doing.
I miss the days that i would message you asking if want to meet or if we are going out for movie.
I miss the days that i would beg you to take photos with me even when you dont want to.
I miss the days that i would throw a fuss because you ask me to plan for outings and everything.
I miss the days that i would have to think of something to do and give you on anniversaries.
I miss the days that i would tell you that i have bruises and you would actually rub them for me.
I miss the days that i would wait for you to go back home, finish your dota and finally call me.
I miss the days that i would have to listen to whatever you say and do whatever you want me to.
I miss the days that i would start hugging you and kissing you like some mad fellow cos imy.
I miss the days that i would say i love you and miss you at any possible time that im able to say.
I miss the days that i would actually find ways to make you happy because i made you angry.
I miss the days that i would have to try make myself happy & smile even when im very moody.
I miss the days that i would have to force myself not to cry because we just had a arguement.
I miss the days that i would have to go home myself because you have no money send me home.
I miss the days that i would ask you if i could send you home so that can see you for longer time.
I miss the days that i would have to think of something to do when truth is there nothing at all.
I miss the days that i would crack my dry brain to think places to go & you would reject all of it.
I miss the days that i would have to endure whatever unhappiness. But still continue loving you.
I miss the days that i would have to let you vent anger on sometimes cos of your bad temper.
I miss the days that i would wait for you to finally send me a long and sweet message i wanted.
I miss the days that i would feel neglected and upset and you would find ways to cheer me up.
I miss the days that i would have to wait for your message for dont know how many fuck hours.
I miss the days that i would feel that im not good enough so that i have to do even better for you.
I miss the days that i would have to feel happier when you scold me because im feeling moody.
I miss the days that i would do anything for you at all because you're the one that i really loved.
I miss the days that i would dont care about anything just to meet you and to see your cute face.
I miss the days that i would have to force myself to wakeup for school because you want me to.
I miss the days that i would stop myself from doing all the bad things and try be a better person.
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All this things that i've been through, things that i've changed about myself. Things i've endured. Its just not enough to hold you back any longer. You proved to me that you're happier. And say that things arent going to be the same anymore. Showing me that i should stop fighting for what i love. Saying and doing things that would hurt me more than anything. I really felt like giving up my life. But whats the use? You'll continue your life as per normal like you're doing now. Since it has been happy for you the past few days then go ahead with it. I wont say anything anymore. I have no strength to fight for anything anymore. Since promises are meant to be broken is just of course a dream for it all to be fufilled. Then i find no point continuing to strive hard. You keep on doing the things that i've always wanted to do with you. Promises that you would made and not fufill. Im not the only one. I dont know why you just keep want to continue piss me off like this. I really dont want to care anymore, or even check up on you already. But can i really? Who knows. Just treat that kailin doesnt even exist. She's a nobody from the start anyways. Forget it.
MIA
she'll talk to you if she wants to.
Piercings - Eyebrow, 
Double sugar coated dreams. Kissed goodbye. @ 11:07 AM